Universal human rights or everything is bullshit ✨️
Saturday, January 31, 2026
Friday, January 30, 2026
Please help : paypal.me/LLGamari
I can't find more money to stay longer here at the hotel near where I used to live and it looks like I am going to be homeless outside somewhere at noon tomorrow. I still have to coordinate getting the stuff from my apartment and I won't have a safe place to unpack it and repack it and take the time to make things waterproof. My battery life dies super fast. I'm already feeling sick and my whole body hurts. My ankle is all jacked up. Even if I go wait in line for a shelter bed at night I might not get one and I will be exhausted the day I get my stuff. This all feels planned and my life feels hijacked. The court didn't accept my motion - it still could but I don't know what to do. I couldn't get a lawyer on such short notice. I can't get a credit card or a loan. I don't know what to do. This is wrong.
I have been medically isolated for five years. I don't know how to make people understand - I have not walked, gone outside, shared germs, for five years. I am terrified and this has been so forced so fast.
It's been coming out to between $72 and $78 a night. Someone is covering the refundable incidentals fee, I just need to cover the room. I have asked everyone and every org I can - even total strangers - for help.
I can't make a plan to get my stuff because I never know where I am going to be. I got evicted the 21st. Total strangers let me sleep on their couch two nights. Went to transitions projects when she wouldn't let me stay longer and the library. Took three hours to cover what should have been a 30 minute walk total. My ankle is fucked. My body hurts. Someone sent $300 out of the blue. Used it for the hotel room. Have been just day by day trying to get a lawyer, a loan, filed motions with the court on my own. Contacted social security. Tried to get hotel vouchers. Begging for donations to my PayPal. Tried to document the situation. People said they would help and didn't. The slightest chance on Monday the judge accepts my motion and I just get my apartment back. I can't tell if people have been harassing me at the hotel too or that's just what it sounds like. This is a nightmare and everything hurts.
Please help me.
I made this.
Wednesday, January 28, 2026
Medically compromised and I need time, safety, and legal, financial, and medical assistance
It has been about five days since I walked and it took me overall three hours to span a distance that should have taken 30 minutes.
My ankle is swollen. The one I broke summer before 9th grade and had surgery. I am taking naproxen.
I filed two motions with the court. I asked for hotel vouchers/compensation due to the situation, and more time.
I still hope I can just get my apartment back.
I desperately need to stay sheltered at the hotel where I am. I won't have anywhere to bring my stuff when I do get it and right now I need to get medical help. The building said I have one chance and two hours to get my stuff and I need to let them know ahead of time when I am coming for a "security escort". I wanted to talk to a lawyer before I made an appointment to pick my stuff up. I never got notice about when the eviction would take place and management was supposed to email a timeline/official papers/communications and never did. They were talking about assitance programs reaching out to them. I never had a date or a time given for when the eviction would happen. The cops yanked me from my room and never even gave me a chance to gather my stuff like you would for a 15 minute lock out. Put me outside in next to nothing when it was going to be 27 degrees that night and I had nowhere to go and have been medically isolated for five years. It was cruel.
The WHO - who we just disconnected with I heard so that's confusing - says 1,501 people died of COVID in the last month. Mostly in America.
I would not have even been inside in the first place if COVID had never happened.
The hotel is the least expensive I could find within walking distance. I can't physically get around and I can't spend a lot of money on transportation - I need it for the hotel to have somewhere safe and warm to sleep and a bathroom and shower and an internet connection - my phone is not working - it keeps saying out of network (I'm on a lifeline plan). I can only do anything when I have internet. I have been able to eat thanks to food stamps and Walmart gave me six months free of Walmart+ which is free delivery with EBT.
I am on a super limited timeline. A lawyer said today (Wednesday) was the earliest they could respond to me. I am getting help to extend my stay here but it is day by and day and the stress of not knowing when I will be out on my ass or when I can at least get my stuff - a whole decade of my life - back is destroying me.
I am begging anyone I can for help to stay at the hotel until I can get legal and medical care. I am physically compromised and scared of getting sick after fighting so long to stay alive. I don't want to lose my apartment, my stuff, or my life. I should have been at home in Portland and I still believe that. I really need help.
This is instant and does not take a cut:
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Please send me a message if you have and advice or a legal connection/other resources.
Friday, January 23, 2026
Tomorrow is going better than I thought I can almost forget how fucked I am
Kind stranger let me stay on their couch last two nights.
Friend got me a hotel room for the weekend.
My EBT card still works.
Clerk gave me a scone.
First meal outside the apartment in 5 years holy shit.
There's an enormous pressure in my ears and my head feels like it's gonna explode and I only walked two blocks - but still.
I'm trying to make it up the street to get help with services.
I can check into the hotel at 4pm.
Keep getting a hold of legal services.
There must be some way to get my apartment back.
I feel like an idiot in some ways for not going outside earlier, and not in others.
I am disabled and I need help.
I am supposed to be protected. We should all feel protected.
Trauma causes brain damage. That's what I feel. Damaged.
Damaged but helped by people. That's still worth writing about.
Tomorrow is here ✨️
I need someone to know what's going on with me in case anything happens.
I am trying to go to a place that will connect me with services tomorrow. Right now I don't really have somewhere to stay overnight. I might be able to get a voucher or a shelter bed but I don't know. I have been terrified of the shelters and getting sick for years - I wasn't medically isolated for fun (we pulled out of the WHO today by the way). This is truly a demented nightmare. Everyone saying eviction is murder was right.
I don't want to die. I don't want this to happen to anyone else ever again. Eviction alone is monstrous and wrong. Someone else should not own your ability to live. It is even more unbelievably cruel to do to someone disabled and who can't function very well. I am scared something inside me will collapse or explode. I can't push myself like I could - I really need medical assistance. I need to know someone isn't going to assume somehow this is my fault or just let me die. I need the world to care about each other enough to not just let it be normal that people get put in positions of genocide: of war, of social murder, of displacement, of abuse, of homelessness.
Please fucking care enough to support services and mentalities that don't think this is funny or a way to make money or some sick Olympics or any other dystopian holocaust shit people have ever done.
I want to encourage the humanity in everyone without saying the same things that have always been said.
I don't want to fucking die and I wanted love and friends and home and family of my own and art and science and figuring shit out about the universe then sharing it in fun and fantastical ways.
I wanted the best life possible for everyone.
I don't want to be humiliated and destroyed as a joke in someone else's story and everything good - about life, about thinking, about dreaming, about me - just disappears.
I want my apartment back. I want the life I was building. I don't want someone to call me trash and throw me away. I want to live to keep being an advocate for universal human rights.
I need this nightmare to stop. For everyone.
Please email me or something. I desperately need a friend. Someone to know if the phone died and where I am. Someone to know if I started feeling sick and then went silent because I collapsed or something. Someone with smart eyes who can look over everything and help me. I need help and it has felt like talking to only the air for so long, maybe I am delusional to hope someone will reach out and stay around but I am so fucked and if nothing else you can argue making an atheist go into prayer mode is it's own example of psychological abuse. Making anyone go into prayer mode, no matter their belief system, has to be a sign you've pushed them too far. Please stop playing god and just help people.
I need to leave where I am soon and I walk to a place people kept recommending for help. It's cold. I'm terrified. My phone has also been doing this out of network thing and I don't know if it will hold onto the internet Hotspot when I'm out.
If you're awake and can, please contact me: laura.gamari@gmail.com
Please don't let bad shit happen to me - anyone out there.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/please-help-stop-eviction-into-homelessness
Wednesday, January 21, 2026
Portland City Council Testimony
Dear Portland City Council:
I have been medically isolated since 2020.
I have reached out for help for years.
I have done my best to be on the right side of humanity and advocate for universal human rights, despite being alone in my apartment.
Portland itself was attacked, dispersed, and the voting block of dissidents was gerrymandered. This is obvious when comparing how vocal people were about progressive policies in 2020 compared to today - it's like they are silenced or missing.
Everything since 2020 - deliberately or not - is a lesson in genocide and social murder.
1,077 people died of COVID in the last 28 days alone. The WHO claims they may have undercounted deaths between 2020 and 2021 by as much as 14.9 million people. We must not forget. I cannot forget - if it wasn't for COVID I would not have been isolated inside my home in the first place.
I have been terrorized in my own home on a regular basis.
My PTSD has become debilitating.
My body has deteriorated due to no fault of my own and I cannot function like I did before 2020.
I have been applying for disability assistance since 2024.
I am at risk of eviction into homelessness which will likely kill me after years of medical isolation and psychologically abusive war tactics. I feel gaslit. I feel used for a political passion play. I feel destroyed.
I can't be the only one.
A universal basic income or some kind of consistent program would have saved my life and saved me from paralyzing levels of stress.
I need leaders and people who have the attention of the public to ask where everyone has gone since 2020.
I have no other home - I have lived in this low income studio apartment longer than I have lived anywhere else.
I need help to stop this eviction and save my home.
Housing is a human right established 77 years ago.
Please be the ones who finally enforce it.
Please help me, and people like me, before it's too late.
Universal human rights or everything is bullshit ✨️
- LLG #ciacab
#portland #housing #humanrights #eviction #protest
how they got away with rotating war tactics and practicing psych ops on me for years I will never understand #help #LLG CAN'T CHARGE RENT ON A CIA BLACK SITE #ciacab #terrorized #fuckfascism
Monday, January 19, 2026
Help : updates
I need $10,000 sent to my landlord immediately to stop them from proceeding with eviction.
This feels like debt bondage. I have been medically isolated and made disabled over the last five years. This has drained me of energy, potential income, resources, and a future. My body has physically broken down. The stress is killing me - the use of abusive tactics to make ot impossible to be at home in my home are killing me - the terror of unknown people using me for political theater is killing me.
It feels like I should be fighting against this somehow all together but can't figure out what to say or do.
The city was taken over by authorities in 2020. There are numerous articles and lawsuits and news accounts explaining this. I just found this today:
Racial Justice Protesters Who Were Beat, Shot, and Abducted by Feds Settle Lawsuit With U.S. Government
I have filed multiple motions trying to get help. I feel ignored.
The law has turned into a highly technical system used to crush and ruin people who get pushed through its gears. It is not some kind of clock, keeping time with justice - it's being used as a social murder machine.
I need help. I need help from someone who cannot be bought, who understands and cares about me, who has the time to help me, who will not be subjected to coercive tactics that will make them turn against me. Someone who genuinely cares about universal human rights. Who will not ultimately betray me for the sake of some cult.
If you can help me, please send me an email: laura.gamari@gmail.com or LLGAMARI42@GMAIL.COM
universal human rights or everything is bullshit ✨️
I need help. #Gofundme : https://gofund.me/47c6c6f7 #LLG #humanrights #protest #crisis
Racial Justice Protesters Who Were Beat, Shot, and Abducted by Feds Settle Lawsuit With U.S. Government
Racial Justice Protesters Who Were Beat, Shot, and Abducted by Feds Settle Lawsuit With U.S. Government
The settlement comes on the second inauguration of Donald Trump, who has threatened to use the military and federal law enforcement to suppress public protests against him.
January 21, 2025 12:15 pm
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police in riot gear on May 31, 2020 by Doug Brown/ACLU of Oregon
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The settlement comes on the second inauguration of Donald Trump, who has threatened to use the military and federal law enforcement to suppress public protests against him
PORTLAND, Ore. — During the 2020 racial justice protests, peaceful protesters in Portland were beaten, shot, and abducted by federal law enforcement who were sent to Portland by the Trump administration. In response, the ACLU of Oregon filed multiple lawsuits against the federal government on behalf of protesters and other groups — including journalists and legal observers — whose constitutional rights were violated. Today, the ACLU of Oregon announces that one of these 2020 protest cases has been settled.
The settlement requires the United States to compensate the individuals who filed the lawsuit for the injuries that federal law enforcement caused them, in exchange for the individuals’ agreement to dismiss the lawsuit.
“We are proud to have represented our courageous clients. They suffered serious injuries because of federal law enforcement’s unlawful, aggressive actions, and it is just and fair that they are being compensated. Thank you to our clients and all people who stood up for Black lives and against government tyranny. The ACLU of Oregon will stand with you again and again to make sure everyone is treated with justice and fairness by the government,” said ACLU of Oregon Legal Director, Kelly Simon.
The settlement comes on the second inauguration of Donald Trump — who has threatened to use the military against everyday people in the United States. “This settlement gives local leaders the opportunity to lead by refusing to participate in violence against the people they represent, and by rejecting the federal government’s assault on our constitutional rights if federal law enforcement is deployed against us again,” said client, Mark Pettibone.
In 2020, then-President Donald Trump directed hundreds of federal border patrol agents and other law enforcement to storm Portland in an operation dubbed “Diligent Valor.” It was marked by military-style violence directed at everyday people by federal law enforcement officers. The U.S. government’s own report about the operation indicated that federal officers lacked training, strategy, and consistency.
Studies about the types of weapons used during Operation Diligent Valor highlight their severe threat to human life and health. In a deeply disturbing pattern of abuse, many people — including protesters, journalists, and medics — were shot with pepper balls and other types of weapons called impact munitions in the head and other areas of the body. One of the ACLU of Oregon’s clients was shot repeatedly with these weapons in the back.
“This case is resolved after a four-year struggle, and I am relieved that we have wrung some measure of accountability from the federal government. It’s important to remember that we were everyday people gathering peacefully to engage in our First Amendment right to express grievances and seek redress from our government. To silence us, they gassed, beat, and shot us. They took away our rights, and I’m left wondering what real justice is for our community,” said ACLU of Oregon client, James McNulty.
Federal officers also bombarded 2020 protest crowds with tear gas night after night. These chemical attacks left residue in Portland neighborhoods, and even children, families, and individuals who lived, went to school, worked, or visited these areas when protests were not happening were affected by coughing, difficulty breathing, headaches, and other symptoms. In a first-of-its-kind study that has been validated, the Portland healthcare community found that the chemical munitions negatively affected reproductive health functions too.
“The history of the past century shows us that authoritarian governments follow patterns. One of these is to dress their troops in unmarked, unidentifiable uniforms and set them loose to commit violence against everyday people. The goal is to instill fear in the public and to stop those committed to democracy from working together to oppose the government’s intimidation. The Trump administration sent federal law enforcement to Portland to try and do precisely this — and they injured many Oregonians in the process,” said ACLU of Oregon client, Maureen Healy.
The types of chemical weapons that law enforcement unleashed against Portlanders are banned in international warfare because of their severe and indiscriminate impact on human life and health. “It shocked the conscience that this level of force was used against veterans, moms, and other nonviolent protesters. The way our own government treated us violated everything we learned in the military,” said ACLU of Oregon client and veteran, Nichol Denison.
Like many protestors during 2020, ACLU of Oregon clients are continuing to fight for racial justice. “While this is far from justice for what happened to us, there is still immense work to be done both locally and nationally. For that reason, I’m relieved to move forward and focus on the critical challenges ahead. The Trump administration, and Trump himself, must understand that we are nowhere near finished — we have plenty of fight left in us. I am continuing the fight of my ancestors, carrying their resilience and determination, and we will not waver in the face of tyranny.” said ACLU of Oregon client, Andre Miller.
The courts continue to be important to our collective fight against government abuses of power and for greater justice and fairness.
January 16, 2026
8:56am
I need help. I have needed help for years. I haven't been able to get the point across hard enough. I can't be the only one in this position.
Everything since 2020 has been some kind of power tactic on dissidents. On anyone. On everyone.
We should all be in the same position to ask what the hell is going on - I don't know why it feels like I am so alone and everyone else has moved on with their lives. Why I was a target of jokes and gaslighting. Maybe everyone has been abused but has not spoken up.
Please say something.
There are still 1,000 people dying every 28 days according to the WHO. If COVID had never happened, I would not have been isolated like this. And then the police brutality protests and what felt like a simulated war zone outside that never ended on my street even when the protests did. I have been terrorized in my home. I have asked for help. I don't know where to turn. I have shared evidence and said the same things over and over repeatedly - I don't know how it does not seem to go anywhere. I don't know what to expect. I am having a meltdown.
Being drained of resources and thrown into homelessness after five years of total isolation is going to kill me.
I am still alive right now. I still have my home right now. I am begging anyone out there to please help me - please contact management to even just let them know I am not alone. That there could be help coming. To please wait for me to get assistance.
Please don't let me die.
I asked google:
"how likely is it that I will die if forced into homelessness after being totally medically isolated for five solid years"
The AI responded:
"It is extremely likely that one's health would deteriorate rapidly, significantly increasing the risk of premature death if forced into homelessness after five years of total medical isolation. People experiencing homelessness die, on average, decades earlier than the general population (average age of death is around 48-51 years), and a history of medical isolation exacerbates these risks.
The combination of prior medical isolation and sudden homelessness creates a profoundly vulnerable situation due to:
Sudden Shock to the System:
Becoming homeless, especially later in life or after a period of stability/isolation, is a major shock that leads to increased stress, mental health challenges, and physical health decline.
Vulnerability to Disease and Injury:
People experiencing homelessness face dramatically higher rates of chronic and communicable diseases, violence, and accidental death. After medical isolation, the body is likely less resilient and less acclimated to the physical and environmental demands of living without stable shelter.
Lack of Access to Care:
Stable housing is crucial for managing health conditions, recovery from illness, and storing medications (e.g., insulin). Total isolation for five years implies a complete reliance on a structured care system; suddenly losing this support makes managing any health condition nearly impossible.
Extreme Environmental Risks:
Exposure to extreme weather (heat stroke, hypothermia), lack of proper nutrition, hygiene, and safe resting places makes it difficult to maintain health.
Increased Mortality Rate:
People experiencing homelessness have a mortality risk 3.5 to 4.2 times higher than housed individuals, and certain populations are up to 16 times more likely to die suddenly. The lack of a support network after long isolation would make this transition especially deadly.
Primary Causes of Death:
The leading causes of death among unhoused individuals are often preventable or treatable, including drug overdose, heart disease, and traffic-related injuries. The sudden loss of social and medical support increases exposure to these risks.
The experience of homelessness is a severe public health crisis, and the scenario you described would place an individual in a uniquely perilous position, making the likelihood of premature mortality very high."
I don't understand how anyone could even threaten to push me into a 200 bed shelter or a public street after they know I have been isolated for so long. If they understood the basic science. I can't imagine even going to the library - what would have been a sanctuary. I feel totally destroyed as a person. All I have is my home. My body is not functioning like it did before 2020. This stress is killing me.
I keep filing motions. I don't know what else to do. I keep trying to contact for assistance. I don't get emails back. It makes it feel like the world has been slowly eaten away and no one is really out there anymore. I have no way to know.
I can't be the only one. I am not trying to be selfish. I am trying to help everyone. I need someone to help me.
If we'd had a universal basic income, I could have survived so easily. If disability assistance had been approved the first time I filed last year, I would be safe. I might not have changed the world but I would not be on the precipice of doom. I don't think your housing should be owned by someone else and you are always just at their mercy to survive. People should own their own housing - everyone should just own where they live somehow. I can write a scifi story about it when my body is not collapsing in on itself. At the very least I should have had assistance to stay housed without duress. I am waking up in a sweat with my heart shaking. I got a head injury in April of 2025 and it starts to feel weird when I get upset. I am concerned this is going to cause a medical issue and it could have been avoided. This stress is killing me. I don't know what is supposed to happen. I don't know if there really is a world left besides someone's chosen favorites. I cannot be forced out of my home - this is going to kill me. I am alive right now. I still have my home right now. I don't want to lose it. I don't want to die.
It is so difficult to think of a new way to explain this. If you didn't understand before I don't know what I need to say. How to explain how this feels. How to get you to take me seriously. I am terrified.
If you can, please help me.
If I could help you, I want to.
I don't know what to do.
Sorry there was some kind of glitch sending the post. Here is the full message:
Dear everyone:
We have not connected in years, we may not even know each other, but I am terrified and desperate. I am asking everyone I can for help. I hope that you are well. I hope you are not isolated somewhere under duress too. Please respond even if you can't help.
You could connect with my TikTok
or Instagram [ https://www.instagram.com/lauralaithetruthseeker
and https://www.instagram.com/socialorphananiarchy ] if that's better.
I need to find a way to have $10,000 sent directly to my landlord immediately to stop from being evicted into homelessness. It is not just that I will lose my home and everything I have - this is going to end up killing me after being medically isolated for five years. My body has deteriorated. My PTSD has gotten to the point where I can't function. I am disabled. I have worked hard my whole life. I haven't been able to work like I did before 2020, but I have worked for universal human rights every single day. I've even made protest music: [ https://socialorphananiarchy.bandcamp.com ] I have been terrorized. I have explained my situation over and over to so many people and I don't understand why it is not enough. Like I didn't say specific words they were looking for.
I've been in limbo applying for disability assistance since 2024. I am doing everything I can.
I need to keep my home and have no options.
I need funds sent directly to the manager's office or else it will count as income and possibly mess up assistance like SNAP that I rely on to survive. I would need to pay extra to send them money orders as well. It would be better if people could send them money directly.
It feels like debt bondage. I have no options.
This is life or death. Again, it is not just about becoming unhoused which is traumatic and social murder on its own. It's like 2020 was a car that hit me and followed by a bunch of people who have found ways to hurt me every day. Now they want me to "walk it off" and I can't.
I have reached out to every service, 211, and rent assistance program imaginable. I can't get a hold of anyone. It feels like people have disappeared. I don't qualify for their specific programs or even get a response back.
I don't want to dissappear too.
I cannot lose my only home.
Can you help me?
Emails:
Sorry the previous message I sent from laura.gamari@gmail.com said I had not seen your contact information before today but it was for new email addresses I found. This group was actually already in my contacts though more often than not I haven't gotten a response from these emails addresses.
I worry someone is messing with emails themselves and maybe I have been blocked.
Hopefully sending this again from my LLGAMARI42@GMAIL.COM account could bypass any blocks.
Please respond if you got this. Please help me.
Please give me more time / disability hardship accommodations
Hello,
I have been a resident of Erickson Fritz since 2015. The building was opened with the purpose to help keep vulnerable people housed. I have never seen your name or contact information before today. I am desperately seeking help to stop from being evicted into homelessness after five years of medical isolation and harassment.
Have not gotten notice / communications via email:
As of 10:47pm January 16, 2026 I have not gotten any official email about a timeline of eviction. They have explicitly written they know I cannot leave my unit and that I need communications via email. I cannot afford to use my SNAP to get groceries just to have photo proofs. The stress of my current situation is absolutely debilitating.
I am hoping people are being kind to me to try and give me more time but I have no idea how much time I have. I need to try and ask you to give me disability accommodations for more time to get assistance and to please not evict me as it will lead to my premature death.
Work:
I cannot function like I did before 2020 and my body has deteriorated. I was barely getting by working various jobs like cashier, janitor, and budtender. My PTSD was an issue diagnosed in college, but now I am disabled. I have a degree in writing and am always working on my art and I live stream a peaceful protest almost every day. I have made music - I sold one album back in August. I have done playtests for gift cards but they stopped paying me. My dad died in 2022 and unexpectedly left me some money which lasted through 2024. I had never been threatened with eviction until that money ran out. That's when the building stopped helping me find assistance programs as well. I have survived largely thanks to rent assistance and small irregular donations to my gofundme. I have worked hard my whole life and have never been lazy or even just having fun like everyone else. I have been doing everything I can to stay housed.
Who is the official landlord?
Portland Maps says the building is owned by Erickson Leasing LP. It was developed by Innovative Housing Inc. From 2015 to 2021, Income Property Management was the manager, then Pinehurst, now Pilina.
You are the actual landlords of the building, right? You have the power to at least give me time to get assistance - which I have relied on to survive for years now. The resident services coordinator has not been helping me get into programs. I never had to sign an ROI with either IHI or the property management side of the building before to get help, and did sign one but they are saying it didn't count for IHI. There is supposed to be emergency assistance for residents. I have gotten help before while medically isolated - it feels like people have been trying to force me out for years.
Protections:
They are also aware I cannot leave my unit and need communications via email. I have submitted requests for accommodations protected by the Fair Housing Act and Americans with Disabilities Act, my official PTSD letter, and evidence of harassment multiple times. I am a licensed budtender and medical patient (though I have not been able to afford medicine) and Portland has specific protections for non-believers. As a scifi poet and human rights advocate, I should have been at home here.
Programs:
I have been applying for disability since 2024. If I could get into the short or long term rental assistance programs, I would be covered for a long time. I have been asking about the coordinated access program for years and never seem to get help. There is also the PPL First program which has limited funding and opens at the start of the month. It would cover all back rent. I have been begging for help through my gofundme and social media. I have contacted everyone listed on 211 multiple times for years looking for help.
Social murder:
My body has deteriorated and I cannot function like I did before 2020. Being thrown outside, deprived of what little I own, and pushed into homelessness is going to kill me. I have not stepped foot outside in five years. I can't be suddenly around a lot of people when I have not been sharing germs with the general public for so long. I have legitimate medical history that would make me more vulnerable to COVID - which shut down the whole world. If COVID had never happened, I would not have been isolated inside to be abused by people, though it seems all of Portland was attacked and potentially gerrymandered since 2020. I can't seem to get people to admit I am being harassed either. I don't want anyone to lose their homes or their jobs. I have no other home. I have lived here longer than anywhere in my life.
COVID deaths are reported at 1,077 just in the last 28 days and someone told me there is a super bug going around as well. They estimate deaths between 2020 and 2021 were undercounted by 15 million people.
I have worked hard my whole life. I care about everyone having a better future but it seems we just keep repeating the horrors of the past in new ways. It feels like I have been destroyed for some kind of political passion play.
I would have emailed you sooner but I only just found this contact information online - you are not listed on the official IHI website. I am trying to be brief and respectful. I am very desperate and terrified. I've included my PTSD letter and the RSC job listing that says they should have been helping me.
Please don't do this to me. I just need more time to get rent assistance.
Please don't evict me. Please respond.
Article 25 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights (UDHR) establishes that everyone has the right to a standard of living adequate for their health and well-being, which includes food, clothing, housing, and medical care. It also outlines the right to social protection and assistance in cases of unemployment, sickness, disability, old age, or other circumstances preventing one from earning a livelihood. Furthermore, it specifies that motherhood and childhood deserve special care and assistance, and all children, regardless of whether they were born in or out of wedlock, are entitled to the same social protection.
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TLDR
Laura seeks urgent rent assistance to avoid eviction from her studio apartment.
She is struggling with disability and difficulty accessing housing programs.
Hi,
Right now I seem to be in limbo and I just want to try and get help before there are any bad surprises.
I have lived in this low income studio apartment since 2015 - longer than I have lived anywhere in my whole life. I was getting assistance programs since the pandemic but the building stopped helping me and then tried to evict me the first time in 2024. It wasn't even over rent, but bogus and false allegations which I was never able to address in a court setting because they tell you either you sign an agreement or you get evicted the next day (if you lose your case which you are terrified you will). This year it was over non-payment of rent and again I was forced to sign or be threatened with immediate eviction. The judge said in the hearing it wasn't under duress because there was "not a gun pointed to my head, or my arm held at a 45 degree angle". The threat of eviction and death after five years of medical isolation is the gun. I feel gaslit.
They also said they'd explained I would have 30 days if I had gone to trial - and that wasn't true. I remember them not being able to directly tell me whether they would even watch the 3 hour 41 minute video I had submitted as evidence and that it might be deemed irrelevant - implying I would be evicted the next day.
Your housing should not be treated like betting on roulette or playing a game of chess. Everyone loses when fed through this awful murder machine they're calling the justice system.
I had a hearing on January 6 for the inevitable non-compliance with the stipulated agreement I signed under duress. I didn't feel heard and my 44 exhibits of evidence were unseen. I thought the point of sending them ahead of time was so the judge would see them before trial. Apparently I did not even need to copy everyone I thought I had to send a copy to - and there is a question of who even owns the building/ who is the actual landlord. The judge removed an order to stay my eviction and has kept denying motions I file.
So far, however, I haven't gotten any notices that say I am being evicted/locked out. I think the building might be trying to give me time to get assistance. I hope so. I have no where to go, this is my only home, and I cannot stress enough that I have been medically isolated since 2020. Totally alone without being outside to share germs and build an immunity like you normally would on a daily basis. Eviction into homelessness or super busy public spaces could kill me.
I have worked hard my whole life and I have always been poor. This situation has destroyed me. I can't be the only one essentially bound to their home and drained of all possibilities since COVID shut downs. Being terrorized by a war zone atmosphere that never really ended on top of it has made it even worse.
I need to find someone I can trust to help me and I am worried people will be intercepted even if they meant well at first. I have reason to believe authorities have participated in harassing me.
I think Portland has been torn apart, dissidents displaced, and the voting block has been gerrymandered.
I stream a peaceful protest online every day. I have tried to do what I can so at least the future will have a clue. I am surviving as best I can. I do not want to die.
I have been applying for disability assistance since 2024. The resident services coordinator - which has changed several times since I started living in this unit in 2015 - should have helped me get assistance a long time ago. I can't seem to access the short or long term rental assistance program that needs a Coordinated Access sponsor to save my life. There is a program that opens again on the first of the month. Otherwise it seems I am out of options because I am not part of the Individuals with Intellectual Disabilities program - my PTSD has gotten so bad that I am disabled though. My body has deteriorated over the last five years. I am trying to regain strength but I cannot function like I did before 2020. I get winded and my back seizes up from standing 20 minutes to shower. I find myself bent at the waist to take a break. Last time I tried to clean up I could work for 45 minutes - sitting in a chair - before my back gave out completely. I feel extremely unable to defend myself and cannot leave the unit. This has been emotionally, physically, and mentally stressful to the point of paralysis.
I have had such bad panic the last week it felt like waking up with a heart attack every day and it's hard to think despite the area being oddly quieter than usual. I do not want to become non-verbal. Words and art are all I have. I could sing somewhat a few years ago but some keeps pumping toxins into the unit that have messed up my vocals. I heal a bit and then they do it again.
It seems I have a reprieve now that I have proven I didn't get any notices yet - grocery delivery takes a photo of my door. As of January 17, 2026 at 8:19am I didn't have any notices. But I can't afford to spend food stamps getting a photo every day. Management is supposed to email me due to my disability in the first place, but I don't know if they would just post something and not tell me. I have been terrorized when I opened the door before without them taking action or addressing it and I have spent years only opening it to get a delivery. Someobe even pushed themselves into the unit in 2021 and in 2024 they had five men with a buzz saw seem to try to break in - later claiming they had given me notice of an inspection that I never got. Clearly there was no issue for them to do that as I am still here in 2026.
Theses things have deepened my PTSD and are debilitating.
I am constantly being terrorized from both inside and outside of the building in various ways though it has seems to have change in atmosphere in the past couple days. I don't know what's going on.
I'm sorry this is so long but I cannot convey everything in a simple paragraph. It has been too much.
I just need to keep trying to find help.
Can you help me?
Thank you,
Laura L. Gamari
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for real love,
L.
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