3:07am
night shelter
Seems like everyone is dead asleep now, but I had two people yaking next to me and they woke me up maybe an hour ago.
All I heard is "they're on hard drugs" like they were complaining about someone else. The one lady just had her purse stolen so I get why she's pissed but also - like - what the fuck I need to sleep. Let's see anyone else ever even care about what just happened to me for 5 years before I got wrongfully evicted. Isn't it funny what people do and don't care about?!
Makes me think of everyone who came and went from here just since February.
Wonder where they all went.
Wonder why they make moves the way they do.
Wonder if they're okay.
My arm and wrist is already sore and I have barely written anything.
3:33am
Deleted an old video. Made some space. Tired again. Just wanna feel protected. I deserve to feel protected. Not held hostage. Not stolen and utilized for another's flawed, stupid purpose. Not removed from everything I love and care about. Just, protected. Like everybody else with intelligence and some kind of family, lifelong friends, simultaneously organic and organized life.
I am rambling. Lemme try to sleep again.
I'd play binaural beats but my headphones are dead.
2:12pm
2:16pm
What a stupid fucking day.
Oh, are they getting some kind of routine?
Are they finding a groove?
Did they seem to be adapting?
Ruin it.
Is that the fucking thought process?
I am tired. Maybe I shouldn't even bother explaining shit today. I am annoyed and angry and justified.
Whole fucking world is - probably.
Not a soul said a single fucking thing today about legislators taking away the right to abortion in Oregon. I just realized that.
Where the fuck is Kate Brown? Where the fuck is Tina Kotek? What the fuck?
It's not even listed on the front page news.
... The KD issue : new article that came out pretty much makes it sound like he did nothing wrong, this was blown out of porportion, made to seem like he did evil shit with homelesss people's identity information (doesn't sound like it just based on the article) and now this is really just an ad for people who think it sounds bogus too: https://www.portlandmercury.com/news/ethics-commission-fines-homelessness-influencer-over-state-violations/
"While Dahlgren was once entrusted to do outreach work and provide services to unhoused people, he is best known to most as the man who films them for his own web content. Under his online moniker “Truth on the Streets,” Dahlgren positions himself as a “boots on the ground journalist sharing the reality of the streets.” He has nearly 400,000 followers on Instagram, and 100,000 on YouTube.
In his videos, Dahlgren can be seen interviewing homeless Portlanders, often multiple times a day, in various phases of life. Some of the interviews appear to happen with the consent of the interviewee, while he films others at a distance as people experience distress from mental health or substance use. Dahlgren interviewed gubernatorial candidate Chris Dudley in February, and published a five-minute interview with Mayor Keith Wilson in January, in collaboration with local influencer accounts PDX Real, John Collins, and Thomas Hatsis."
SO TIRED.
