dear world : please help

Dear World:

I am sorry to show up out of nowhere begging for help - I have no other options. I hope you are well enough yourself and I wish I could help you instead of being the one crying out. 

I can't function or work like I did before 2020 and I need help: financial assistance and a human rights advocate.

I almost $7,000 in debt for past rent with my building and it looks like I am going to be denied disability assistance because I cannot leave my unit for an appointment: which was the whole basis for why I was applying for fucking disability.

If they had told me when I applied there would be no option to have a telehealth appointment I would have been making different moves earlier. Now it feels like being forced into debt bondage.

Then today it looks like I am being stuck with a $200 internet bill after a program called HRSN was supposed to help pay it for the last few months.

I need internet to survive. I am isolated and have been under duress for the last five years. My body has deteriorated. I have no other home and I shouldn't have never been terrorized into this position. I am absolutely fucked. 

Please help me.

Even just sharing this with your networks could help.

I know I have been begging for help for so long it feels like I have been blocked.

I am just trying to survive. 

COVID kept me inside and then people have been terrorizing me as I have been falling apart, given panic attacks, trying to hold on for dear life. 

I do not want to die.

Please.

If you can help me at all, please help me.

Link: https://gofund.me/47c6c6f7

I wish you the best no matter what happens ✨️ thank you for responding even if you can't help me - it's hard to say everything all at once - thank you for even just caring.

UPDATE:

JULY 30, 2025 5:22AM

I just need to vent somewhere.

Two people were able to donate money recently.

The first donation should have shown up Monday.

It says both are in my account now, but when I went to get groceries and supplies, it denied me.

I called the stupid autobot/scripted customer service line for "telecheck".

They said I could keep trying but it might take another 24 hours.

I swear to fucking non-existent god someone is withholding my shit like they want people to starve right now.

Starvation has obviously been on anyone's mind who pays attention. We talk about genocide every day but not for everyone around the world (Sudan, Taiwain, Haiti, Pakistan...) and we never talk about COVID anymore. 

I have been isolated inside since COVID. If it had killed me would you have even known? And then people came around and abused me while the protests were going on and never stopped - as recently as last Saturday it's like I was being fucked with by strangers for hours on end. They do it to make you eventually burst with a panic attack. It is both obvious and needs to never happen to anyone ever again.

Of course - you know me - I would have stood up for everyone's rights. It's like the "joke" is that people like me care about everyone else but can't help ourselves survive.

July was a 5 week long month. I bet a lot of people are out of food stamps and hungry right now. 

I am on my period and out of toilet paper...again.

This is fucked up and I am sick of feeling played in a psych op for someone's political agenda that only ends with a better world for THEIR family, friends, and favorites while everyone else dies to prove their points. 

check out: https://www.cfr.org/global-conflict-tracker 

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