HELP [FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME]

I AM BEING ATTACKED BY SOMEONE BANGING ON MY APARTMENT AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO ASK FOR HELP WHEN IT SEEMS AUTHORITIES ARE IN ON IT

SOMEONE ABLE NEEDS TO STOP THEM

THIS IS LOW INCOME HOUSING MEANT TO HELP POOR PEOPLE

MANAGEMENT WAS SUPPOSED TO INVESTIGATE HARASSMENT

I AM DISABLED AND CANNOT FUNCTION 

I HAVE BEEN UNDER DURESS FOR FIVE FUCKING YEARS

I AM CONSIDERING THIS A HATE CRIME

PEOPLE NEED TO STOP HURTING ME, STOP LETTING PEOPLE HURT ME, STOP TRYING TO PROVOKE ME, AND LEAVE ME ALONE

I WILL NOT BE KILLED OUTSIDE BECAUSE OF THE NEGLIGENCE OF THIS MANAGEMENT OR THE ONES BEFORE IT

 

 

medical issues: under duress: I cannot return to work. I cannot be pushed outside and I need to be left alone without being terrorized. I also need help surviving [internet, phone, supplies]. 30 messages

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Laura L. Gamari <laura.gamari@gmail.com>	Wed, Oct 9, 2024 at 7:06 PM
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Hello, This is long but I need to communicate this to you before it's too late. I am reaching out to anyone I can think of for help. I keep asking for help and I feel ignored. My options are increasingly limited. This is my only home. I have nowhere else to go. I cannot leave my low income studio apartment. I need to keep my internet and phone number to survive. It's all I have right now to communicate, know anything, or get food. I am disabled now and cannot do what I used to do for work before 2020. I have been surviving under duress. Mental Health: Diagnosed and put of Effexor XR for PTSD, depression, and anxiety in college (2008-2012). Stopped taking Effexor and became an official medical cannabis patient in Portland. I am also a licensed budtender. I have not been able to afford medicine consistently. I have had 9 therapists throughout my life. I could have been a therapist myself if I had been able to go to grad school. My entire family has been part of the mental health world and medicated in ways that clearly did not help them. Advice to talk to a therapist is insulting at this point.  Physical health: Had a history of pneumonia/chronic bronchitis and have been put on antibiotics multiple times, including being in the hospital for something popping in my back/lung in October 2018. The old property manager had to help me get to the hospital and get medicine back then. I don't have anyone to call for help.  Other medical history but unsure if it's connected. I'm not trying to give all my personal information but it doesn't seem like people care or understand how seriously I have been hurt. Filling fell out and tooth broke apart in 2020 while isolated inside. Horrible pain. Have had multiple absess bubbles on the gum line by the bad tooth but they go away. Then May 1st 2022 - suspiciously after property management switched and I got two deliveries - something horrible went wrong with my back. I had eaten a new hot sauce [brand is the same as the shit someone just put by my door...would love to know how they knew the brand or why they'd think that was funny or okay to do] and threw up from the pain. Couldn't sleep laying down, had to sit up in a chair. Thought I was going to die. Worst pain of my life, and the tooth was really bad (Orajel 4x made it stop). Pain waves last for like 2 weeks but subsided. I looked up many different possible reasons from organ issues to muscle/spine issues. I still don't know. When I started using RSO/FECO again it felt like my body was literally healed but something is "disconnected" from my spine. It still feels like something is wrong often. I have no energy. I think my muscle tone has deteriorated from being curled up in the same small area for so long. I have been doing my laundry by hand and have been able to stand to scrub it for less and less time. I have a broken down feeling that stretches from the left side of my jaw and neck (where the bad tooth is) all the way down to the bad part of my back.  I get winded taking a long shower. Someone stole my toilet paper and I have had to shower to clean myself when I use the bathroom. I get help from charity services online sometimes but it doesn't always work and then people stealing the donations is destroying my life. I could not possibly just "go back to work" cleaning or standing at a register like I used to. I am supposed to be a professional scifi poet but this situation has not been something where I can't really get my writing work done. I have no intention of leaving after everything I have been put through.  To add insult to injury (and injustice) when whoever is in the room next door or upstairs pounds on my apartment is does literally feel like I am being beaten up without being touched. The weaponized sound outside has mostly stopped but would also feel like being beaten up. After 2020 my brain felt literally bruised. It hits right through my sternum and heart. I think they know what they're doing and are literally trying to kill me.  I don't know what to do but I am disabled now and haven't been able to get my mail due to neighbor harassment.  Being isolated inside has also clearly impacted my vision and the LRAD/weaponized sound abuse I have had to protest against for years now has had an impact on my hearing. I have had to wear earplugs and play something constantly to block out all the random and cruel weaponized sound both in and outside of the building. If it's just quiet then any sound is like being punched.  Finally, I was also blocked from voting in May due to the neighbor harassment and I don't know what to do about November's election. Being deliberately stopped from voting feels like an even bigger problem.  I understand this is long and personal. I still don't feel I have said everything I need to say. I have tried to communicate as clearly as possible. If I am pushed outside I think it will seriously kill me. I am terrified. I am not trying to die. I have been surviving under duress. Please understand. I need you to know. Please do not kill me. -L. My life is a protest.🗽 Universal human rights or everything is bullshit✨️ Intersectional solidarity💜 *this email is meant for intended recipient(s) only* June 19, 2025: