Love, Portland.

No brutality.
No unfair fights.
No police state.
No excuses to hurt us.

Subvert expectations.
Be defiantly peaceful.
That is my advice.
I see how anything we do can be used to make those protesting against brutality look bad.
Don't let them make examples out of you. Of us.

Something isn't what it seems in Portland.
On June 1st, there were multiple requests by public officials to have the National Guard come here. At first the request was denied, but then 50 National Guard and 100 State Police were deployed. Then the president sent four groups including Homeland Security and Border Patrol officers. Now, after violent altercations with citizens, local leaders are asking for the officers to leave yet also choosing to close down the public park where much of the activity has been happening. Every day there's new footage of what appears to be someone doing nothing being attacked and taken away by agents. Nightly, I'm hearing loud booms that seem to be coming from areas away from where the center of the protests are located. I have been socially isolated for over 50 days and can only explain my limited perspective, but something is very wrong here. Looking to the future, I worry this is a slow death, social murder, for thousands of people and will only serve to secure another term for the current administration by eliminating and making a bad example of anyone who would vote otherwise.

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Terrifed at 3am July 17, 2020

No one can probably see this anyway, but do not interact with my account.

Someone set a garbage can on fire across the street from my apartment tonight.

I could be wrong, but I have reason to believe it was actually a local police officer. If they didn't, I don't understand why they didn't get out and ask the people around if they saw anything, especially the woman  across the street who had been yelling horrible shit for however long beforehand.

There's been screaming and yelling on this street all month, I have lost track of the bullshit. It is awful. I do not want to be bullied out of my home. I'm terrified of getting sick on top of it.

I called 911 and they said a fire truck was already on the way, even though the police officer had left the can in flames. The fire people put it out, but didn't ask anyone if they saw who did it either.

This is insane. Even as I write this, another "regular" screamer is saying "get the fuck out bitch" and going off from far away.

Normally I would think people were under duress or mentally ill, but I think they might be paid actors. I think people might be paid to infiltrate the protests as well. I fear they are trying to set up situations to make examples of people or use them for a political purpose. I do not want to die, but in the event of my death, NO ONE should receive any kind of payment for any reason. I also hope this isn't used an an excuse to bring more tyranny to Portland - leave one of the few progressive safe havens alone! Thank you for caring, whoever the fuck you are.

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3:18am July 18, 2020

https://twitter.com/Volta2020

Regular citizens don't have the infrastructure for "anarchy". Even if people united over an area, they would be at a disadvantage compared to power/tech/resources of the rest of the world. Powerless, most of the population has been kept in the dark and divided on purpose.

Do you know how things are run, how they're maintained, how water & air stays clean & lights stay on? Any idea how to fix anything if it breaks down? Or protect each other from exposure to dangers? How to survive a future pandemic, natural disaster, or other catastrophe?

One person going out and living in the woods might survive a lifetime. But everyone eats and shits, and a whole civilization worth of people will need food, clean water, trash & sewage systems - that needs maintenance. And what about those who depend on our help to survive?

So much is mined and made elsewhere & distributed through government contracts - cellphones & tech, equipment, medicine, factories for innovation - there are some things we couldn’t make on our own even if we wanted to. Not as things are today. Globally, we need each other.

Why do you think things stay the same despite every life lost and good intention? The idea that those in power would give up wealth is preposterous & they're moons away from anyone facing tear gas, brutality, eviction & houselessness, medical fears, hunger, social murder etc.

The only real (r)evolution I see is a gradual understanding of everyone’s inherent worth & humanity no matter their race, gender, sexuality, neurodiversity, level of income, or any other variation. Maybe that's the basis for a better future - it's only taken 13 billion years

Capitalism’s evil stems from exploitation - but even in a world without money - where everyone might do their jobs for "free" because their needs for housing, food, education, healthcare, & safety are granted as rights - we still need infrastructure/maintenance/innovation.

I’d love if people could live by their own art, which we all have inside of us - grow our own food, build our own homes - but like a million pieces pulled apart & scattered around the world, there’s no way to survive without working together - it's just not a fair fight.